The Day Care Blues

Since I have decided to go back to school, I have been putting off the inevitable...daycare for Bella.   This summer I was fortunate enough to have all online classes so I could still do my duties as a stay at home mom.  However, now that I am in the science portion of my classes, taking them online is not an option.  So why is finding daycare a problem for me...well about 3 months ago Bella had to be enrolled in daycare so that I could take an 8 week nursing assistant course.  In the 8 weeks she was enrolled, she probably only actually went about half the time all the while we were paying a fortune.  Why was she only there half the time you ask?  She got every viral and bacterial disease they had to offer her.  First it was the norovirus, then it was bronchitis, then it was pink eye in both eyes.  For those of you that have your child in daycare, you know that they can't attend when they have these illnesses, but you still get to pay for it!  Now I do blame myself a little bit for this because she was very sheltered from germs and other kids for the first part of her life so of course she is going to get sick.  It was just very upsetting that I was trying to focus on school while she was sick all of the time.  Anyway, back to present...
Something else to vent about this morning...the military offers financial assistance for daycare, however, in order to see if you qualify you have to have the child enrolled in a daycare and then fill out the application for assistance.  Does this make sense to anyone else?  The whole point in finding out if you are eligible for assistance is so that you can decide on which daycare to take them to that you can afford.  Am I the only one that sees the problem here?  So now I am forced to find a sub par daycare because there is a chance that we don't qualify for assistance (it is based on rank). 
Anyway, I am just rambling now so I will end with this.  Why am I going through all of this stress and hassle?  Being a stay at home mom is the most important job in the world, that I will agree with.  However, as much as I love being able to be with my sweet child everyday, I am on the verge of insanity staying home everyday.  There are only so many loads of laundry, and you can only clean the house so much before you want to go crazy.  And, because you clean so much from sheer boredom, you become a complete freak about your husband walking in the kitchen with shoes on for fear of him leaving a speck of dirt on the floor.  You really can become a mental patient staying at home.  I know some of the older folks would say, "It is a blessing to be able to stay at home" and I am completely in agreement with that, but as for me, doing this makes me a more happy and stable person for my family. :-)